I remember the first days and weeks with my first son so clearly. I was filled with the most raw and instinctual love I have ever known. At the same time, it was the first time ever that I was so acutely aware of my mortality and the mortality of everyone around me.
In that painful, postpartum state where I was exhausted yet buzzing with adrenaline, where everything hurt and my baby was still learning how to exist outside my body, I was struck by how fragile we all are. But like most people who make the jump to parenthood, my own fragility did not bother me so much as the fragility of my baby.
All the frightening possibilities began to spin through my mind – illnesses, accidents, me forgetting to do something that was important for his development. It didn’t matter how unlikely a problem was. Even a 0.001% chance of a serious illness was terrifying because what if that 0.001% chance came knocking on our door?
There is no simple solution to feeling anxious about the wellbeing of our children. It takes a concoction of methods to keep that deep seated fear from taking over. It takes great effort but I believe that it’s fundamental for our wellbeing and the wellbeing of our loved ones to make that effort.
Worry about our children is natural and normal. However, at some point we have to move past the terror and choose to live life well in spite of it. But how?
It Gets Better With Time
To some extent, we don’t have to do anything. Eventually the mind does adapt to the new reality of being a parent to our precious babies and we make some form of peace with the risks out there in life. I remember feeling nowhere near as terrified with my second son simply because I was a little more used to the idea of how vulnerable children are. All the big scary possibilities were still out there but I had a couple years of motherhood under my belt at that point and I came to terms with the fact that all the scary things really weren’t right around every corner.
The Body Plays A Bigger Role Than We Realize
When we feel anxious and scared we tend to think that the battle against anxiety needs to be waged exclusively in our heads. We work hard to think our way out of our fears and sometimes we forget how much our physical health impacts our mental health. If you’re not nourishing yourself well, if your muscles are stiff from lack of movement, if your PMS is going untreated, if you go to bed late – all of these physical factors warp the way you cope with stress. Tending to the body can make the difference between weathering your fears and regularly spiraling into a state of panic.
LIVE And Think Big
Sometimes, when the mind spirals about all the things that could go wrong, it helps to plant your feet firmly onto the ground a run headlong into life. Go to zoos, museums and farm festivals. Have regular date nights with your partner and find time to go out for tea with your best friend. Get back into the hobbies you loved before parenthood – reading, crafting, baking. Immerse yourself in living to avoid dwelling on the what-ifs.
Now, when all is said and done, you eventually have to be alone with your thoughts at some point in your day. For most parents, it’s when they’re lying in bed at night that the worries about their kids begin to creep in. This is a good time to employ tools that you may have learned from your therapist or other wellness professionals about mindfulness and various relaxation techniques. Because I am spiritually inclined, I find that this is when I need to lean into my spirituality. I need to remind myself that there may be something bigger out there that’s got my back and that I can hand over control to when the weight of the worries feels too heavy.
I wish I had an easy “five step plan to kick your parental anxiety to the curb” but that’s just not reality. That being said, these little things go a long way to helping you be a less anxious and more present parent. If you’re reading this at 2 am in the midst of an anxious moment, I hope I brought you some peace and a reminder that you are very much not alone.
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